lately ive been plagued by questions from my friends about girlfriends. I've told them all the entire "relationship" thing isn't my thing and they keep asking what would i say if they got a g/f. I (being enver and straightfoward like always) said "d00d what would be the difference between now and then... for one you would have a moneysucking leech on your wallet, i mean it would be different if you loved each other(keyword=loved) otherwise i advise against relationships" they told me in response "well, d00d, if i get a g/f ill have some1 i can talk to and someone i can care for" and i replied swiftly "well what if they dont care for you?". I'm not trying to be mean and say all women are money driven but im being more general and saying most people period are money driven. It doesnt matter whetether your male or female you'll always encounter money hungry people. Anyway back to the talk... well he starts telling me "well man i reall have it bad for this one chick and i think she likes me too" and i respond *like the fucking hypocrite i am* "just aske her the worst thing she can say is no." and the "Enver, YOUR A FRIGGIN IDIOT" came back to my head. Well ill make the story short if you hadn't heard it before... well recently i had it bad for a chick >.< and i wanted to ask her out ( ya know on one of the thigs normal people call "dates" and i told myself to go for it...BUT(<---big one) i was afraid of rejection (because this girl in my opinion was the most beautiful girl i have ever seen ) and i walked away without ever actually asking her... i think that was probablly the worst mistake ive ever made...ever. So on with the story... he goes on to ask the girl after school and she (like numerous bimbo's) turned him down for no apparent reason. He told me on the phone today and i told him that we are gonna hang out on saturday night and i'll make you forget about her... then he tells me these words "but she was special..." . First thing that comes to mind "im a friggin poser i tell people to do things i wont do.... i am everthing i hate....how could i.... omg" im still wondering what drugi have done lately since i havent been myself. well thats it for now. Ill post on monday or mayb tommorow.

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